Rock-A-Bye Baby!

The baby's crib came today! It's installed, mattress in, bumper tied, and blanket ready. All we need now are sheets ... and a baby. Jill promises she's working on that last step. Having the crib in the room really helps make this event all the more real for us.

As we were tidying up the room after putting the crib together, Jill asked me the question of 'does it seem surreal to be doing this right now?' What a great question. It does in the sense that I have no idea what to expect. Everything I've done in my life up until now has been calculated and weighed based on its happiness quotient for me, and then, for Jillian and myself. And on some level I still feel 'young' and think it's crazy to be having a baby. But on the other hand, when I talk to my mom or Jill's parents I sense the joy that having a child can bring you. I KNOW from my side that there are some tense 'moments' in the child-rearing process but the love and respect we have for our parents is the thing that I want with my child. So yeah it seems surreal because at night I'll close my eyes and play out conversations that I envision I'll have with my daughter at milestone moments in her life; first day of school, friends, sleepovers, dating, college, etc. and in my mind I yearn for those moments to be here ... and I want to savor those moments as she grows up.

But for now I'll settle for the crib. And the beginning of the journey with my wonderful, glowing wife.